Lost in this world

yesterday..........

yesterday....it seems everyone around me was dealing with alot of shit...it seems the one pharmacisit i work with might just be in a pickle...really can not comment on what he did but he just might not be around...so working with him yesterday was HELL...its alot on my shoulders this job but in the same sense its rather fun...i love learning and tryin new things in life...growing up it always seemed like i got the short end of the stick or people would rather not give me the chance to show them i could actually do it....but man oh man the name of some of the medication is rather funny....haha it reminds me of the phone call i was on the other day...see when they do not pick up there meds after a period of time we must call them and remind them that there meds r here....and we r to say hi this is such and such and i am callin to let you know that u have a order here well i called and asked for howard haha and it was his wife...it seems as if howard is rather a bad boy and she was getting rather pissed to hear i was a female and i was askin for howard...but when i explained who i was she was now very nice and told me he was not in lol....so now at work i am known as the mistress lol....yep few weeks into this job and i am the mistress nice lol...

we have to deal with the old alot...and it can be very challenging with them...i have alot of time and i totally understand where they r coming from i watched my grandparents and i know what an illness can do to a person and the moods they get in....but mrs.scott was not havin it yesterday...she was not satified with our help in ordering her meds...we where very nice to her and took our time with her we spent 30minutes on the phone with her...when normally it takes no more then 5 minutes to order the meds....but this poor lady thought we where makin fun of her....for one i would never make another person feel that way i am not like that...but the other girls in the pharmacy said do not worry we know u took your time with her she must be havin a bad day....but i do not think anyone understands all the hard work we do there...its alot of work....but that is what this world has come down to...rush rush...hurry hurry....sad we should slow down and make difference in this world...

Pain.....

Pain....i am in suck pain...2 days ago my man picked me up from work which was totally nice since i get tried of driving to work everyday it was nice to be picked up lol...anyways we where driving home and we where sitting at the light and it had turned the van infront of us went and we where turning...when jim started turning this lady on the otherside decided to go....now she was parked on the side of the street so that is why jim started turning she came flyin out of the parking stop so jim had to slam on the brakes...YEP...i flew foward and back so hard it made me see stars....i was so light headed...then the pain started kickin in when we where at home a few hours later...from the back of my neck down my spine...i took advil and used the heating pad thinkin it would work and i would be fine....omg was i wrong...i need something stronger....i soaked in the tub last night and was in bed at 6pm...i did not wake until this morning at 7:30...the other night i was up half the night not able 2 sleep....but it sucks tryin to type it hurts and at work it is screaming pain....but i just have to deal i guess...

Jim is feelin bad...i keep tellin him i am fine and that it is not his fault...shit if he would of not stopped she would of took my door off and i would of been really hurt....he says he is not takin me to work anymore....ugh...i hope he will get over it....

Mood........

it just might seem as if nothing will make me happy...i thought getting this job in the pharmacy would change alot of my mood...nope...now i never get alone time with jim today is the first day i get alittle alone time with him...right now he is takin his daughter to school so i thought i would just let things out here a bit...so now i spend little time with him and more time with the kids lol...i just can not win...i could just work at home...but i like getting out and talkin with different people...so i have 2 days off here and easter sunday which is totally nice...one good thing about workin in the pharmacy i get the holidays off...do not get me wrong i like workin in the pharmacy its just i miss something...or i am totally lackin something...

so this lovely morning i get to spend a few hours with mom...her easter present to the children r saving's accounts which is nice...but i think she lives in the stone age she can not do it herself i must go lol...not a big deal i need to get my pay check anyways..but like i said i am in this mood....

friday my other day off i get to spend it with my dad and his girlfriend joy...remember mood thing here lol..anyways he is bringing over my children's easter presents friday cause he must attend his sister's house on sunday...god for bid he spend it with his daughter....thats one thing that totally pisses me off..my father has been out of my life for 16yrs and i would think he would want to spend a holiday with his daughter he says oh you r invited to attend your aunts house also...but we have havin a dinner here sunday...oh i give up on pleasing everyone there is no way i could ever win that one...

bill the totally jackass...yep he got the papers for me to finally sign...he called and demanded me last week to come and sign the papers with him...i laughed...look i would love to get divorce from this idiot and be done with him for good...well almost done...we do share children...which i could scream lol...but i was in the middle of doin something and i told him that we would have to pick another day for that cause i could not do it...he totally started giving me attitude...which sets me off each time...look when he left the only thing i asked from him was help raise the children that's it...i took over the house payments and the other loans we had at the time...i totally made it where he was off and he could start all over fresh....shit they wanted him to pay me...and i turn that down...but yep i am a bitch and i suck and all that pretty jazz....so he started tellin me how i do nothing with my children....i can not believe he went there with me...i take my children places i raise my children i do everything for my children...and i have my children 24/7....oh lets give bill some credit...3 weekends he has been pickin the kids up on saturday and keepin them over night and bringing them home sunday at 7pm....yep that makes him man of the year....totally jackass...anyways he stated how he does everything with the kids lol...yep he gets the kids one week in the summer they go up to the dam where his girlfriends parents camp and spend a week up there...so lets think about this...the cost for them is zero...lets see when i take my children places it cost me money...which i do take them to places...but yep he is still the man of the year...i just brought them a playstation 2 and went out and got them new clothes and stuff...and lets not forget who gets them presents for there b-day and christmas...shit he buys them one or 2 things for christmas that breaks that same day....but once again he is man of the year...and have the time he has to bring the kids home early cause he has no food in the house to feed them dinner lol...but i do nothing for these children lol...

i should of never got on that subject now i am totally in a mood.........