he is amazing
06.27.05 (3:43 pm) [edit]just me talkin about the way he makes me feel...its 2 hot 84 at 8:38pm ughhhhhhh that is crazy...i am so fanning it lol...i have ac but fuck it...lil sweat wont kill anyone...i had something weird happen 2 me today..it was like a smack in the face i realized life is short lol..duhhhhh...but today i let things roll off my back at work...blah it is so not worth getting pissed at...today seeing jim made me think of what it was like when we firt met...god those days i never wanted it 2 end...funny thing is when i wake and see him layin there i want 2 make time stop and just lay next 2 him...its amazing 2 feel the love i feel for him...he makes me cry happy tears...he makes me laugh...giggle,smile....what more can i ask of him....his love for me is amazing..there is no doubt he loves me i would never second guess him on that his love for my children is wonderful...sad part of it is he shows more attention 2 them then there real dad (loser)...we have his lil ones up here now and its different but i love it.....i finally won...i finally have a man that understands a man that wants the same...a man that believes in family...and treats me and my children with respect what more do i need...i need nothing more in life..i have everything..my children and 2 more amazing children...a amazing man....my home i need nothing more...i thank the man above for answering my prayers....there is a god
its been awhile
06.01.05 (7:59 am) [edit]wow its been awhile that i needed 2 take time from me and sit and type about how i feel...well alot has changed and alot more is going 2 happen within the next couple of years...hmmm where do i start....oh that i found a amazing man..well we knew each other for about 3years talked here and there we wanted 2 hangout before but one of us had cold feet lol...well he found me again couple of months ago when i was depressed about the rob thing not knowing where 2 head in that direction...well we started talkin and getting back intouch with each other and thought it would be the right time 2 meet up with each other so we made a lunch date...and i am so happy we finally did....well he moved in and we got engaged...lol yes u all might think damn that is fast..but have u ever been in a relationship where everything fits....i mean it feels like i knew him forever and like i said just everything fits...well now we have his 2 kids up here for the summer and its great...5 kids lol...ouch u may think but i could not ask for better kids really....i just hope i am doin a good job with all of this...i try and try 2 make sure things go smooth....i just finally found that empty space in my life and its amazing....i hope someday the ones that think life sucks and there is nothing out there comes apond someone that makes there day and night everything cause i did....
